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A destiny they brought upon themselves, is the one that willl decide everything. Their hearts are tangled in a world full of the corrupted and fearful. The tears they shed is yet drops in an ocean, but effect the outcome of the human race. These souls come together in a string of events the will make the possible...impossible. This will be...when angels deserve to die.



~ i copied this down when i was looking up books online. This is one of the desscriptions for one of them...fits my story, ne? do u guys think i should *steal* it? ^-~

~HoSHi*

Sadness is a Killer

This morning I was in an OK mood for the circumstances...I was looking forward to going to my school @ 12 to pick up my school books..and to see Boo-chan and Eiko-chan, or ne other comforting faces. I got there, nervous that someone mit ask what I'm doing at school without ne uniform...well, ne wayz, i got my stuff out of my locker and i overheard sumone saying that lunch didnt start till 12:05...i dunno..i was getting lower, i had come at the wrong time and my dad was waiting for me outside, I eventually saw Stephan and told him wat was going on, he gave me a hug and it was nice to see a friend. I was going to leave, but I had just had to see Boo...i waited, i waited...and finally he came. i was so upset tho, cause i had to go, and i hadnt even spent ne time wid him, i just wanted to cry in his arms, let everyting loose. I didn't even see Eiko-chan, and truth be told i really wanted to see him....heh..amazing how the smallest things mean so much to one person. worst thing is, when i got in the car, i apologized for taking so long and he said, "long? nah, that was nothing" i coulda stayed longer...! i needed to stay longer....i needed something good in this...this, depressing turn of events. i needed those people that haf been following my life, who kno as much as i kno about it. i still need them. but all i haf in this computer. and a shell of protection to stop everything from braking loose, to stop my tears from flooding down my cheeks into a world that has experianced so many tears, so that mine is yet a drop in a huge ocean. i wont see my friends until many days from now...and until then im on my own. My God, 2 days ago I thought things were bad, LOOK AT IT NOW!!!! this morning i just discovered a huge bump on Toby's throat. ..wat is God planning for me? do i honestly deserve this? is this sum kind of sick joke of a test?

?: "well, looks like she transfered to another school to b happy with her bf...hm...let's shake up a few things, she doesnt get to b happy that easily.........first, let's make her first day of school a crap of a day....then, let's give her a subject that she really doesnt like and causes her to get into a fight with one of her closest friends. then, let's also do crapy stuff to her friends. that way it's even more of a bad experiance for her. and once she gets her hopes up again (but she's still weak from the pressure) let's pass away her grandfather, not only does she lose someone precious, but she misses the next 2 dayz of school, AND leaving her unable to see the people she cares about till many dayz later, also cancelling a chance to see a friend she hasnt seen in a long time. THEN, let's make her discover that her cat may potentially have cancer, on the same day she misses her chance to see her bf and one of her closest friends, and has to wear all black when she goes to the showing of her passed grandfather....
*phew* if that doesnt give her a hard time, or even break her down till she has a hole in her heart, then i dunno wat will....oo! forgot one thing, homework, how's she gonna get THAT done? AHAHAHHAHAAAA!!! AND she has a quiz on monday! *evil grin* oo and she mit not b able to see Jade on saturday....Wow, i overdid myself this times, *pats itself on the bac*"

someone...ne one who cares, please help me?

~Hoshi*

?: "PS! i forgot one thing, wat's she going to do while she waits to do ne thing??? hahahha!!! who's going to keep her company??? hahahahhahahhhahahahaaaaaMOOAAHAHAHAHAHAHAaaa..a....haha.......ha."

well, after i got off of the computer, i went to the washroom...then my mom came up stairs and...said, "Renae! Renae! He's gone..." My grandpa died, may he rest in peace. I hope...I know he's in a happier place, away from pain, but it's still sad...my heart is still heavy. I wont b in school for the rest of the week, and my weekend is iffy. *sighs* im not sure wat else to say...but i hope he knows that i love him, and that i always have...^.^ always will.

ne wayz...i hope u guys haf a good week

it's me, signing off with a heavy but nonetheless flaming heart,

~Rei*

When Angels Deserve To Die

Could it happen?
Could you think of a day?
Well, it could.
Ne wayz, now I'm trying to force myself off the computer, which is in fact a difficult task, cause i kno watz coming up. *tear drop*
Work.
It's seems for my first time @ ward i seem to haf a lot

eh

ne wayz, im trying man, and ive taken a turn in my directions cause of a dream, Jade-chan wants me to type them out, but man, im not like her! i dun haf da patience >P So, instead im telling her to b patient and wait for a time when i can actually tell her about it tho. And Jade-chan, i think the dream has sumthing to do with bac then...that evil thing. it still haunts me man.

ne wayz, im off to do my work, dat will hopefully benifit my future...*tired* *must force work upon myself*

ne wayz, till a time when my surroundings are at *peace*

~HoSHi*

Regrets

Well yeah, it's 1 am and I'm still up.

I'm expecting to be lectured at around 10:15 in the morning by Boo-chan and if I havent said it already, here it is, "I'm REALLY! sorry, i should of listended (i forgot how to spell the word!!!) to u and went to sleep at 11:30pm. I'm stupid!"

So yeah, I'm pissed, but I'm not sure what I could direct it to, I think that's because I'm too tired. Right now, if u looked at my face, ud see it as tired, but these words reflect my anger. ^_^ yes they do. sometimes I cant understand myself and I can hardly understand others. I wonder where the hell they keep themselves and if they ever let anything touch them there. I know a lot of people who dont and how that pisses me off...so much. Iggnorance pisses me off, but i accept it cause that's the way the person is. But , but, somewhere within me it just builds up. But then again im iggnortant too. Stubborn. Ill listen to other people...but if i think it's "wrong" then it's "wrong" ..hm, and even now when i think about it, i still think im right in my decisions...hm....

Humans are so damn confusing. But whats the point of understanding them? What's the point of knowing ne thing? God, times like this i wish i were a cat. Look at him, all fat and uncaring, sleeping like a baby. Not a damn care in the world. Yeesh that's the life. I also hate it when people conceal the truth. If you've got something to say, say it!!!! GEEZ!!!!! Yes, ok, i am mean, i can b mean sometimes. u wan a truth? here's a truth:

i dun really care about ne thing, ...well, maybe one ...person, but other then that, nnoooopppeee. y? because everything's just a neverending cycle of the same thing. and everyone just does things because they dont want to realize they're a part of something that doesnt make sense, they want to believe it does.

pah.

and now ill b expected to go bac to that, by the end of this ill b "correcting" everything ive just typed. *shakes head* honestly...why? it's like humans r built to ask that.....................................and haf it answered. *shakes head* this world...this world...such petty, petty, things. *shakes head* *shakes head* Not even the dead find peace...in this world.

*a couple a seconds later*

i care about my family, my friends...just sometimes it seems hopeless. wat's the point of caring? ya kno. i dunno, prob feel dis way cause im tired and hungry.

*SIGHS* boo, i miss u, i wish i could talk to u....u.u

~HoSHi*

p.s. "When Angels deserve To die? Should that b the title of, "Could u think of a day"?